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fractals, Love, & wild geraniums

April 23, 2014

In my vegetable garden there are four raised beds built from wood that was once the kids’ old playhouse, one chaotic heap of compost, a corner full of empty bee hive supplies, and space allotted for a Three Sisters patch (corn, beans, and squash based on fish heads). There is also a cool reclaimed-wood arbor dressed in faded flag bunting, some gently sagging barbed wire where asparagus might still be growing, a thornless blackberry bush, and this old metal chair spray painted black.

 

wildcraft garden chair
The tallest greens you see here are wild geraniums. The llamas love them! I’m trying to learn about foraging in Oklahoma, so for a while at least these “weeds” are treasures.

 

I have allowed the weeds here to grow pretty wild lately, just enjoying the lushness and sexiness of a new season taking over the landscape. The abandon of life, crawling and undulating all over the place… Filling every void… Scenting the air with chlorophyll… Irresistible.

To the visitor’s eye, surely my vegetable garden looks crazy. Unkempt, perhaps even neglected. But food is definitely growing there: In the raised beds I have spinach, cabbages, carrots, radishes, potatoes, kale, snow peas, and mesculun. And you know what else is growing? Creativity and freedom. This messy rectangle is an ideal spot for reflection and analysis. Plain old day dreaming. It’s a self-contained fractal and one of my most favorite places on earth.

An unbelievable three and a half years ago, our book club read and discussed William P. Young’s The Shack. Since then I have healed from certain things so much and have gained such a healthier perspective on life. I might even read the book again to see how it hits me now.

 

My purposes are not for my comfort, or yours.
My purposes are always and only an expression of love.
I purpose to work life out of death,
to bring freedom out of brokenness
and turn darkness into light.
What you see as chaos, I see as a fractal.

 

Today I am at the farm all day. No subbing, nowhere to go, lots of wonderful, worthwhile stuff to do. And I couldn’t be happier. My days are so different from each other lately, and woven together they present a gorgeous pattern of life well lived. So much Love every where I turn, it’s pretty incredible. I am deeply grateful.

Sitting here at our dining room table, the winds are picking up, blowing the curtains hard through open windows and blasting me with the brief, exotic perfume of irises and lilies. My coffee is getting stale now, telling me it’s time to go outside. I feel certain yearnings but have trouble wishing anything at all were different, even the heartaches we still have. Life is too beautiful and wonderfully unpredictable just as it is. I so firmly trust, now, finally, that Love has purposed everything.

XOXOXOXO

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This Time Last Year…

April 17, 2014

This week Mama Kat wonders what we were blogging about this time last year. Hhhmmm… You’ll never guess…

 

heart in soil

 

In April 2013 I was writing pretty much the same things I would be writing now, if I were talking time to write lately.

The Lazy W had just adopted Seraphine and we were waiting for a llama to be born. And I was still in my thirties. I’m no longer in my thirties, but once again we are waiting for a baby!

 

Note: This was before Dulcinea came along, so Romulus still allowed the horses a reasonable proximity to his woman. This peaceful coexistence was short lived, though.
Note: This was before Dulcinea came along, so Romulus still allowed the horses a reasonable proximity to his woman. This peaceful coexistence was short-lived, though.

 

I was super enthusiastic about helping some legislation pass in Oklahoma that made it easier for local beekeepers to share and sell their product. It did pass, by the way! And I realized that once in a while I could write something useful, something practical. I was happy to see that writing could become something even more than catharsis.

 

bees on frame corner

 

That month, just like now, I was planting early veggies and bemoaning the transient Oklahoma weather. We had a whopper of a storm season, to put it mildly.

In that month I reviewed books like Khalil Gibran, Typee, and Don Quixote.  I did lots of outdoor reading, before our buffalo had destroyed those two awesome loungers. D-E-S-T-R-O-Y-E-D, you guys.

 

 

quix read chairs

 

I was random as usual and loved me some cowbell. Back then I was still subbing younger kids once in a while, not yet aware of how greatly I would prefer the junior high kids and their much earlier schedule. In defense of little kids, though, they do write more love notes.

 

 

mrs marie tag

The Boston Marathon was bombed, and of course we all were reeling from the horrific losses. I had little to say except an encouragement to increase our joy. Only light drives out darkness. Still believe that.

choose light

And, finally, just like I did this year (until recently), I had a big ol’ juicy case of nerves over the Oklahoma City Memorial Marathon. 2013 was my first half and I was pretty much a basket case. But you know what? It was amazing! I had such a blast; the run itself  was easier than I expected; and I was hooked on big, fun, meaningful races, particularly this one. Forever. A few days after that event I wrote about how it all had improved my outlook on life. Because I am cheesy like that.

run tank funny

Still cheesy.

So there ya go! That’s about what was going on at the digital Lazy W one year ago. Not too terribly different from what’s happening here now. What’s new (or not new) in your corner of paradise?

XOXOXOXO

Mama Kat's weekly link up is full of fun blogs, check it out!
http://www.mamakatslosinit.com/2014/04/things-that-make-me-happy/

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silly things that happened at the track

April 16, 2014

I drove to Midwest City today and went for my final “long” run before the marathon. WHICH IS IN ELEVEN DAYS. It was a beautiful afternoon… Warm, dazzlingly bright sunshine combed through with soft, cool breezes. Sleepy ducks and geese everywhere. Very few people on the track and only non-obnoxious golfers at the golf course. Beautiful day. Drop dead gorgeous. A handful of noteworthy things happened.

I got a sunburn on my mouth. All the way around but mostly on the top edge of my upper lip. It smarts, and it is making my nightly cup of piping hot chamomile tea a bit tricky. I blame last night’s Blood Moon. What’s up with that, Blood Moon??

A super adorable boxer puppy semi-attacked me. He was on a leash (a really long, too long leash) held not tightly by his human who could not have outweighed him by more than like a pound. She was dealing with her cell phone and beanie cap, giving nonchalant attention to her boxer’s energy. I literally jumped sideways like Russell Westbrook in order to avoid him. I was also trying to speak nicely to him to make friends, but because of my ear buds on max volume my voice was on max volume and I ended up sort of screaming at the dog. This scared the petite woman to death, and she gave me a look that really hurt my feelings. An older gentleman watching from a distance shook his head in disapproval, and because of the not-at-all-safe-for-radio lyrics playing in my ears I couldn’t tell if he disapproved of her inattention or the dog’s aggressiveness or my filthy running songs. Not that I was singing those lyrics; I wasn’t. I was screaming WELL HELLO THERE CUTIE!! But it all made me feel suddenly very self-conscious. I sulked away like I had been scolded for something instead of semi-attacked by a cute boxer, and when I realized the injustice (THE INJUSTICE!!) I sprinted. I ran like the wind for half a mile.

Me trying to make friends with the dog.
Me trying to make friends with the dog.

 

I saw a ghost. I’m not kidding. Approaching this particular concrete bridge which make my feet feel so weird when they strike, I saw a tiny, slight little elderly woman focused like a diamond-tipped laser beam (is that a thing?) on pushing her walker. She was smaller than a third grader and bundled up in a coat, scarf, boots, gloves, a hat, and ear muffs. Her bluish white hair exploded in ringlets from beneath the binding of her hat. Her eyes were clear but she never made eye contact with me. She was just. So. Focused. We passed each other, and about ten paces later I stopped to look around and see if she had a caretaker nearby. I had not seen where she came from or anything! Do you know who I saw when I looked around? No one. Not even her. She had vanished you guys, and there were no hiding places. Ghost.

I nearly choked from disgusting thick nastiness right there on the track. Handsome had bought me a handful of energy gel choices for experimenting with before the race, and I did so today. Results: I really like Gatorade chews and maybe those little sports beans Carrie shared with me a while back. The most famous of the three, though? “GU?” Oh sweet granola, that was disgusting. Remember the movie Matrix? It was like slurping the thick, sticky, cloudy stuff Keanu Reeves swims in while trapped in that pod. You cannot swallow the stuff properly; you can only hope it slides stubbornly down your throat before you stop breathing. And it tasted like pretend raspberries. Or some kind of pretend berries. Unpleasant. I gagged and cried tears, it was so bad.

So that was my afternoon! Eighteen miles and these four interesting events later, I didn’t even curl up into a fetal position like last time. Afterwards I hobbled through Walmart for cat food and grocery essentials and didn’t even care that I was mostly leaning forward on the buggy like some kind of lazy teenager.

Do hard things, but don’t yell at strange dogs.
XOXOXOXO

 

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Marathon Monday: Harvey’s Story, part 2

April 15, 2014

Several days ago I posted the first in a series of three posts honoring my father in law
and his work as a first responder to the OKC Murrah Building Bombing in April, 1995.
I want to thank all of you for your kind responses, for sharing your own stories,
and for helping to observe this anniversary with the right spirit.
Following is part two. It is a bit more graphic and intense,
so please keep that in mind before you read.
I know for many Oklahomans this is still a fresh wound.
Much love to everyone.

THE MORGUE TEAM

  The morgue team was led by Dr. Jordan, a prominent and beloved member of the medical community. He insisted on a show of the utmost respect for every victim of the bombing, and in turn he won the respect of his team every step of the way.
Of the sixty people assembled plus another twenty military personnel manning the phones, Harvey and Judy were already friends with half a dozen. Many of the rest would become permanent connections for them, indelible marks on their life stories.
The morgue team’s initial task was to frame lists of people known to be in the Murrah building that morning, as well as lists of people who might have been there. Since the building hosted agencies like the Social Security Administration, the possibilities of different visitors were endless.

  Then the bodies started arriving. The team’s primary job quickly became positive identification of every victim. Dr. Jordan had set high standards, and every team member was vigilant. They identified people through detailed physical descriptions, fingerprints, dental records, and, when necessary, DNA.

  No one had ever before seen a disaster of this magnitude, and the pressure was immense. Eventually they saw a total of 168 dead. It is estimated that 20% of Oklahoma City was grieving the loss of at least one person. One in five people attended funeral services for loved ones killed in the bombing. Many people attended multiple services, and sometimes there were so many funerals overlapping that mourners had to make the impossible choice of which one to attend.
Harvey and Judy knew eight of the deceased personally, but they continued their gruesome and heartbreaking work. In the course of his duties, Harvey himself identified two of those eight lost loved ones.

  None of the work was easy, but everyone on the morgue team agreed that handling the lost babies was hardest. Dozens of infants and toddlers were seriously injured by the blast, and 19 were killed. The morgue team had the unfathomable burden of identifying each of these smallest Oklahomans.
  By about the seventh day, police officers began visiting homes of missing children to collect hair samples from tiny hairbrushes and fingerprints from sippy cups. Of course, the parents were unbelievably grieved.
Mourning families waited daily for news, but they were kept far away from the morgue and well out of view of the refrigerator trucks where the bodies were kept safe prior to identification. For years after that, Judy would grieve freshly every time she glimpsed such a refrigerator truck out in public.

  For the adults who would have had dental records available for comparison, Dr. Glass from the OU School of Dentistry orchestrated a team of first-year students to help with the work. Judy drove that same Hallpark patrol car all over the metro area collecting records and bringing them back to the team. Again, unprepared for such a task, a large percentage of these students ultimately chose not to pursue dentistry as a profession. They were not alone in their trauma: The regional American Red Cross lost 80% of its volunteer base following the shock of this tragedy.

  But that was all much later. While there was work still to be done, everyone stayed. In fact, during those awful weeks, Oklahoma received more volunteers ready to work than there was work to be done.

  Harvey would later recall one Oklahoma City dentist desperate to find ways he could help the recovery efforts. He ended up donating more than enough toothbrushes, toothpaste, mouthwash, and other oral hygiene supplies so the morgue workers could have some semblance of self care while they spent all their energy caring for others.

  This particular contribution would eventually lead to the only moment of levity Harvey and Judy would experience during these weeks. One bright afternoon, Judy was driving up to the site, nearing 8th and Lincoln, swishing her mouth with pure, undiluted Listerine donated by this dentist. It was so sharp and powerful that it choked her, and she swerved the patrol car severely, pulling off and stopping at the side of the road. Military personnel guarding the area recognized her and thought she was in distress, possibly shot. Instantly two humvees filled with armed guards sped over the curb and flanked the Hallpark patrol car. By now Judy had opened her driver side door and was coughing out the strong mouthwash, laughing hard. They all three surrendered to brief and bittersweet laughter.

SECURITY AND RESPECT

harvey's badges

  As head of Security, Harvey made several decisions. One of his first was to block all roads leading into the morgue area, which they accomplished with the help of military presence. Harvey also acquired X-ray machines to ensure that the many incoming packages were safe. Bomb scares were still on the forefront of everyone’s minds. Additionally, to control foot traffic in and out of the makeshift morgue, he implemented neck chains with photo ID badges and a strict sign-in/sign-out policy. Only approved team members were allowed past a certain point, and everyone answered to Dr. Jordan. Even other uniformed police officers and well meaning volunteers were turned away in order to preserve the security and integrity of the team’s sensitive work. Again, Oklahoma had more than enough generous volunteers. Love had saturated every single effort.

  Sensationalism and fanfare were foreign concepts here. The gravity of the situation was felt constantly by all team members. The morgue was a fiercely protected “No Camera Zone,” and on at least two separate occasions people trying to infiltrate the area to snap tabloid photos lost either their equipment or their jobs or both. Respect for those lost was paramount and violations were not tolerated. Fortunately, the vast majority of people agreed and cooperated with this sentiment. Whether native Oklahomans or volunteers from around the world, first responders were people finding needs to fill and putting Love into action.

  It was so much more than work for Harvey and Judy and their colleagues. With every positive identification, following the rigorous standards set forth by Dr. Jordan, the place quieted. Every time a victim was released to a funeral home, he or she left the morgue with perfect solemnity and affection. Reverence was shown at every turn, and the team members all stopped their work to stand and say goodbye. For fallen military or law enforcement personnel, strong, tender salutes were given. But everyone was important. Everyone was a fallen American.

  Several days into the grueling assignment, as victims started leaving the morgue for their final resting places, it was widely known that what our beautiful city had suffered was an act of terrorism.

Thank you for reading, friends. More of the story will come probably next week.
Please feel free to continue adding your own memories

or any words from your heart. And thank you so much for sharing this, Harvey.
xoxoxoxo

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Could You Pass a Citizenship Test?

April 13, 2014

This question has bothered me about myself for a while. Although I have always felt somewhat patriotic and have believed myself a reasonably knowledgeable person, I have fallen embarrassingly short in civic smarts more often than I would like to admit. Watching from the sidelines as people near us have worked and prepared to become citizens of these beloved United States, I’ve decided it’s high time to brush up.

Tiny T says, "I pity the fool who takes his citizenship and liberty for granted!" Preach it, T. Preach it.
Tiny T says, “I pity the fool who takes his citizenship and liberty for granted!” Preach it, T. Preach it.

Which camp are you in? Do you feel totally competent; or do you see some room for improvement? Do you even care?

If you have a minute or so, pop over to the Huffington Post site and breeze through eleven sample questions to see how to measure up. Just take a deep breath and click here. But that’s nothing compared to what we should know, right?

Grab a sheet of paper and a pencil. Because here is a list of 100 questions we should all be able to answer:

1.      What are the colors of our flag?
2.      How many stars are there in our flag?
3.      What color are the stars on our flag?
4.      What do the stars on the flag mean?
5.      How many stripes are there in the flag?
6.      What color are the stripes?
7.      What do the stripes on the flag mean?
8.      How many states are there in the union?
9.      What is the 4th of July?
10.     What is the date of Independence Day?
11.     Independence from whom?
12.     What country did we fight during the Revolutionary War?
13.     Who was the first President of the United States?
14.     Who is the President of the United States today?
15.     Who is the Vice-President of the United States today?
16.     Who elects the President of the United States?
17.     Who becomes President of the United States if the President should die?
18.     For how long do we elect the President?
19.     What is the Constitution?
20.     Can the Constitution be changed?
21.     What do we call a change to the Constitution?
22.     How many changes or amendments are there to the Constitution?
23.     How many branches are there in our government?
24.     What are the three branches of our government?
25.     What is the legislative branch of our government?
26.     Who makes the laws in the United States?
27.     What is Congress?
28.     What are the duties of Congress?
29.     Who elects Congress?
30.     How many senators are there in Congress?
31.     Can you name the two senators from your state?
32.     For how long do we elect each senator?
33.     How many representatives are there in Congress?
34.     For how long do we elect the representatives?
35.     What is the executive branch of our government?
36.     What is the judiciary branch of our government?
37.     What are the duties of the Supreme Court?
38.     What is the supreme law of the United States?
39.     What is the Bill of Rights?
40.     What is the capital of your state?
41.     Who is the current governor of your state?
42.     Who becomes President of the U.S.A. if the President and the Vice-President should die?
43.     Who is the chief justice of the Supreme Court?
44.     Can you name the thirteen original states?
45.     Who said, “Give me liberty or give me death”?
46.     Which countries were our enemies during World War II?
47.     What are the 49th and 50th states of the Union?
48.     How many terms can a President serve?
49.     Who was Martin Luther King, Jr.?
50.     Who is the head of your local government?
51.     According to the Constitution, a person must meet certain requirements in order to be eligible to become           President.  Name one of these requirements.
52.     Why are there 100 senators in the senate?
53.     Who selects the Supreme Court justices?
54.     How many Supreme Court justices are there?
55.     Why did the pilgrims come to America?
56.     What is the head executive of a state government called?
57.     What is the head executive of a city government called?
58.     What holiday was celebrated for the first time by the American colonists?
59.     Who was the main writer of the Declaration of Independence?
60.     When was the Declaration of Independence adopted?
61.     What is the basic belief of the Declaration of Independence?
62.     What is the national anthem of the United States?
63.     Who wrote “The Star-Spangled Banner”?
64.     Where does freedom of speech come from?
65.     What is the minimum voting age in the United States?
66.     Who signs bills into law?
67.     What is the highest court in the United States?
68.     Who was the President during the Civil War?
69.     What did the Emancipation Proclamation do?
70.     What special group advises the President?
71.     Which President is called the “father of our country”?
72.     What immigration and naturalization service form is used to apply to become a naturalized citizen?
73.     Who helped the pilgrims in America?
74.     What is the name of the ship that brought the pilgrims to America?
75.     What were the 13 original states of the United States called?
76.     Name 3 rights or freedoms guaranteed by the Bill of Rights?
77.     Who has the power to declare war?
78.     What kind of government does the United States have?
79.     Which President freed the slaves?
80.     In what year was the Constitution written?
81.     What are the first 10 amendments to the Constitution called?
82.     Name one purpose of the United Nations.
83.     Where does Congress meet?
84.     Whose rights are guaranteed by the Constitution and the Bill of Rights?
85.     What is the introduction to the Constitution called?
86.     Name one benefit of being a citizen of the United States.
87.     What is the most important right granted to U.S. citizens?
88.     What is the United States capitol?
89.     What is the White House?
90.     Where is the White House located?
91.     What is the name of the President’s official home?
92.     Name one right guaranteed by the First Amendment.
93.     Who is the commander-in-chief of the U.S. military?
94.     Which President was the first commander-in-chief of the U.S. military?
95.     In what month do we vote for the President?
96.     In what month is the new President inaugurated?
97.     How many times may a senator be re-elected?
98.     How many times may a congressman be re-elected?
99.     What are the 2 major political parties in the U.S. today?
100.    How many states are there in the United States?

Whew! Surely you did pretty well, because my friends and readers are all brilliant! But I bet there were at least a few questions there that gave you pause. Check back tomorrow or the next day and I will post the correct answers. Better yet, get your friends or office mates to play along. Let’s make sure we all are hob-nobbing with informed citizens, mmkay?

I am so thankful to have been born here, and I am no longer willing to take that for granted.

Give me liberty or give me death.
~Who said that again?
XOXOXOXO

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