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a girl and her horse

February 4, 2015

She loves him so much. I can see it in every movement, every word, every giggle. He loves her, too, like he loves no one else. They communicate in a secret, amazing way.

dusty joc black n white compressed

Her thin, muscular legs wrap around his belly, guiding him and loving him. Her hands brush and braid his mane or his tail. Her arms wrap greedily around his thick neck while her tiny feet endure hoof smashes and the occasional tap-kick. She pretends to scold him for this in a voice dripping with patience and understanding.

She leads him in circles and urges me to ride him, teaching me what she learned while she was gone. Such an incredible trade, an unexpected gift. She cleans his hooves and extends his legs forward to stretch and cuddle some more. She combs her fingers through his long, fuzzy, gray and white winter coat. She teaches him and loves him and needs him and is needed.

She shivers in the cool breeze but insists on keeping her skin (such a beautiful olive wrapping) exposed to the sun, she craves it so much. Then I bring her a blanket anyway so she can stay warm but also cuddle against him, warm on both sides now. She is as swaddled and kissed as when she was a baby, and watching her I feel every impulse in my body as before, everything in my heart and mind firing off with love and energy and hope for the future. Her future.

She holds his hoof and he holds her heart, and at this moment everything is exactly how it’s supposed to be. And I whisper thank you, thank you, thank you to the One who makes it possible.

XOXOXO

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dinner club with a reading problem turns four!

January 31, 2015

Hello, and happy Literary Saturday! This week I want to send a big, loving, grateful anniversary wish to all of my book club girls. This month Dinner Club With a Reading Problem is celebrating four years together. Four years! And I am so happy.

What started as just a fun way to socialize and indulge in a favorite past-time has blossomed into a truly nourishing wellspring. Something that feeds us and challenges us in unexpected ways. What a wonderful surprise to discover such a sisterhood at this stage in life.

 

Our "Red Dress" photo shoot at the Oklahoma State Capitol in 2013. This was an event aimed at awareness of heart disease for women, a gesture of love for our own Stephanie.
Our “Red Dress” photo shoot at the Oklahoma State Capitol in 2013. This was an event aimed at awareness of heart disease for women, a gesture of love for our own Stephanie.

 

Over the past four years our membership and attendance has fluctuated a bit, ranging from the four original women to about 26 at one point, now hovering at close to a dozen. Most of our gatherings enjoy the energy and glow of nine or ten amazing friends who feel a lot like sisters now. Sometimes our husbands or children make happy appearances. And a few times we’ve welcomed out-of-town guests, which is the best. We’ve also been incredibly fortunate to interview our chosen authors three times.

austin

beauties

We schedule dinners about every six to eight weeks, depending on the time of the year. The hostess sets a food theme, sometimes related to the book and sometimes to the season, and we all run with it to build a ridiculous pot-luck style feast. The DCWRP ladies are all excellent cooks and luxurious shoppers, so no one goes home hungry! Our name, after all, points clearly to our food obsession. By this time next week we will have gathered at Kerri’s house to discuss Goldfinch, and the dinner theme is salads. I am so excited! Because, KALE.

food and flag book club

food summer

table spread

shark

We take our carbs seriously.

Though the aim of each gathering is to review and discuss the book we’ve just read, then plan the next event, book club now is all about the friendship we share. We have become closely knitted together, and no matter what is happening is each other’s life we always feel safe and supported. We share marriage and dating stuff, changing family dynamics, career stress, grief, joy. All of it. We are a group of excellent listeners, and if that isn’t the breeding ground for friendship then I don’t know what is.

quote women separated

An excerpt from The Help.

We’ve experienced ups and downs ourselves, too. Like any group of friends (especially women?) we have had conflict and separation, then gentle and happy reunions, and we’ve learned a lot about each other along the way. This book club has a wonderful momentum that just carries us not only from one title to the next but from one life event to the next. And I am so grateful.

gunfight

Speaking of titles, I should be ale to tell you easily how many books we’ve read together, but I can’t. It’s a lot, that’s for sure. We probably read six or eight per year, at different paces depending on the volume and the busy-ness of the months. (Ahem, Bonhoeffer anyone?) Sometimes we choose two books at once if we are craving two types of literary nourishment.

2 books

Our book selection process is a bit random, but it does allow everyone a chance to have input. We simply draw names at the end of each meeting, and that person comes to the next discussion dinner with the title we’ll read that next go-round. This way she has time to look around and make a great choice. With such a variety of personalities and lifestyles in our little tribe, we have enjoyed a wide array of reading material. I love it so much!! Most books we read I might never have considered on my own, and everyone would probably say the same.

When I wished my friends a Happy Fourth Book Club Anniversary, a few of them offered these sweet words…

book club quotes

 

This warms my heart!

And just for fun, here is a list of wacky traditions we’ve accidentally formed at Dinner Club With a Reading Problem:

  • Whenever possible, we get Amber to narrate aloud a racy passage from whatever book we’re discussing. She has the perfect voice and sultry countenance for it. It’s awesome.
  • We always eventually descend into uproarious laughter. We’re neither quiet nor terribly ladylike. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
  • Somehow we always work into the conversation something about whether or not we wash our new bed sheets before using them. It’s a more divisive topic than you’d expect.
  • Melissa brings us the most amazing coconut-lime cake you have ever even dreamed of. It’s the perfect balance of delicate and decadent, and when she brings it we know it’s a special occasion.

coconut cake and blooms book club

  • Stephanie is our group’s token non-reader, but she does make a valiant effort. We love to check in with her to see if she has read more this time, and she loves to tease us about whether a book is being made into a movie.
  • Everyone loves to tease me about two books I have chosen over time: Don Quixote and The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake. Just, whatever you guys.
  • We have an official logo hand drawn by Joanna, and we’ve made it into t-shirts! In fact I am wearing mine as I type this.

t logo

 

The world is filled with all sorts of book clubs. Big and small, corporate and private. They’re all special. But none of them compares to this group. Dinner Club With a Reading Problem possesses a magic which none of us has alone. As a group we enjoy something that makes each of us better, and this coming year I look forward to seeing how we push that energy out into the world. Ideas abound!

Thank you for your friendship, ladies. Thank you for every page we’ve read together, for every bite of sweet and savory food we’ve shared. Thank you for the tears and laughter. You are the shiz-nay. Happy Anniversary!!

roses

 

“That’s What She Said.”
~All of us at some point
XOXOXOXO

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marathon monday: time travel

January 12, 2015

Hello and happy Monday! Happy brand new everything. I admit to totally loving the beginning of the week. The fresh slate, the abundance of pent up energy from a weekend of cuddling and eating spaghetti. The running schedule which is so far unaltered. : )

Everything feels fresh and possible on Monday.

sun returns c

This week for Marathon Monday I’m indulging in an idea sparked by a Twitter conversation with Joe Jacobi. Joe is a new running acquaintance I’ve made thanks to the OKC Memorial Marathon connection. I’d been asking friends to time travel a bit, to think back to what recipes rocked their young adult worlds in terms of convenience, cost effectiveness, etc. What we wish we’d known then kinda stuff. (I’m working on a fun kitchen surprise for our oldest girl who is cooking for herself now.)

Well, Joe suggested that the same question is a totally valid line of thought for sports, too. What do we wish we’d known in our twenties?

Friends, before we start, can we just pause for a moment
to appreciate and wonder at the fact

that I am discussing sports metaphors and philosophies
with an Olympic gold medalist and professional motivational speaker?

Because, miracles are real and life is full of wonderful surprises!
Amen. 

This is such a great idea. Hindsight may seem to be of little value for the present moment, until we consider that what we notice when we look back crystallizes for us our values. We can see clearly what we would change if we could, what we are still celebrating so many years later, and what is worth either repeating or forgetting entirely. Also, who knows? Offering what wisdom we discover in hindsight could help someone else.

Since I didn’t start running until my late thirties, I probably missed my prime. More than likely I am already well past my quickest, leanest years. I’ll probably never win a race, but I don’t care because I still plan to finish gobs and gobs of them. Running has changed my mindset and my overall well being in so many ways, I really wish time travel could be real long enough to go have coffee with myself twenty years ago. I’d say these things:

Me (definitely a non runner here) with my little brother Phil and my firstborn beauty, who is now almost the age I was then. Let's have coffee and talk, Young Me! You're doing everything wrong. xoxo
Me (definitely a non runner here) with my little brother Phil and my firstborn beauty, who is now almost the age I was then. Let’s have coffee and talk, Young Me! You’re doing everything wrong. xoxo

 

Just run. Yes, it takes a little time, but you’ll just spend that time doing stupid stuff anyway, like watching Real World or listening to the Cranberries on loop. Plus, and pay close attention here, you need time alone more than you realize. It will do wonders for you emotionally and socially.

Please cancel that dumb Mademoiselle “gym” membership and buy some running shoes. Don’t worry about how you think you look in sweat pants. You’re about to look pretty great.

Your writing will improve, too. Run that tangled mess of words into a streamlined sentence. Keep doing it.

Run! If you want to lose that little bit of weight after carrying two beautiful babies, running and eating better is the answer. Don’t you dare get a prescription for Fen-Phen. Just don’t, even if your doctor says it’s awesome.

Yes, seriously, I know that the new Pearl Jam album is really great. Agreed! But how about you go listen to it while running instead of just laying there with your ancient Walkman getting a sunburn?

You’re going to lose your Grandma not long after your first baby is born. Please start running now so she can see you finish your first marathon. She could be your biggest fan and you know it. She is worried about the path you’re on.

Run with your little sister. She needs it too. You need to be friends right now, before it’s too late. Trust me.

with angela

 

I bet, and I really mean this, that if you take up running and yoga and just slightly better eating, you won’t feel such a need to spend a gazillion dollars at the tanning beds. And by the way? That’s about to be really out of style anyway. Stop now, okay? Be the first to say enough.

If you start running you will feel better about yourself almost immediately. And I know you don’t want to talk about this with anyone who loves you, so listen to me: You need to get out of that toxic relationship earlier, in an adult way, with less destruction to everyone. Running will help. You will walk away peacefully and everyone will be happy for many extra years.

Run out all that stress instead of spinning your wheels in depression. Run so you can get quiet and listen to that voice inside your 20 year old heart saying this is not right, I’m not happy. Get outside and run instead of over thinking everything and talking and talking and talking about it every day. Talking is overrated. Running is a goldmine of mental health that you need to unearth now.

I know it hurts your lungs a little at first, and you wheeze and feel huge and clumsy and weird. But that’s normal! Do it in little increments. Make a plan. Get some encouragement. Have fun! Do not judge the whole experience by this first awkward beginning. Please give yourself a chance, okay?

Life is about to be so great. It’s about to be so amazing, you’ll soon look around and not hardly believe your eyes. Running will only amplify it all.

 

Okay, friends. Coffee with my younger self was nice, although she actually ordered a Dr. Pepper and chili cheese french fries and didn’t think twice about it, which was weird for me. I hope she heeds some of this hindsight advice. Now tell me what you would tell your younger self about health and wellness. I’d really truly love to hear it. And if you are a twenty-something reader today? Take this advice from someone who would love to have made this happy discovery at your age: RUN.

XOXOXOXO

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lazy w reflections, 2014

December 31, 2014

What a year! Emotionally, socially, demographically, professionally… Just in every conceivable way, the Lazy W residents have had some unforgettable experiences in 2014. Good, bad, ugly, miraculous, and everything in between. We sit here at the tail end of the calendar feeling pretty wonderful, too. Despite and because of it all.

We have seen miracles. We have enjoyed the deepening of friendships. We have seen small crops grow and animals born in the sun. We hatched chicks and buried a mama llama. We said goodbye for now to Handsome’s Dad and hello again to our oldest daughter.

 

squash bloom

small crops

four in new orleans coffee shop

seraphine with baby chick

These two. xoxo
These two. xoxo

 

What got us through this incredible year? Depending on the day we might answer either “prayer” or “Hot Tub Summit.” Usually both. Prayer is powerful! And no joke, those early mornings soaking in the steam together do wonders for our union. It’s more than sexy; it’s a melding of minds and a harmonizing of hearts.

Alliteration is awesome.

This year I ran my first full marathon and discovered I was hooked on the distance, the overall experience, just all of it! I almost ran another full this autumn in Tulsa but made family time a priority. Zero regrets! Training for the April 2015 race has started, and I feel amazing.

The finish line! I was so happy to say i never walked, and I had energy to spare after the race. My husband and our friends will tell you I used that energy by talking no stop for hours. : )
The finish line! I was so happy to say I never walked, and I had energy to spare after the race. My husband and our friends will tell you I used that energy by talking non stop for hours. : )

Handsome is, as always, the hardest working person I know. I’d say “hardest working man,” but that sounds sexist and if I learned anything in 2014 it is that language and nuance matter a great deal and maybe I should avoid sexist vernacular, subtle though it may be. Anyway, he is working so hard at the Commish, and I could not be more proud of him and his team. They have faced down some pretty ugly monsters and can boast not just success but integrity. Here’s to an even more amazing, satisfying New Year, PUD! xoxo

Besides his professional endeavors which are never-ending and rarely afford him two consecutive hours to catch his breath, my guy has been jamming out one wonderful farm improvement after another, and I am so thankful for this!  He’s also taken up painting interpreted fleur-de-lis and sugar skulls on reclaimed wood scraps, giving them to family and close friends as gifts. This has infused our home with a wonderful new artistic perfume. I love it! And I know the recipients of his artwork love it, too.

Here is Pacino being kept happy with a candy cane. Behind him is a surprise Handsome painted for me. The French words mean, "Always Now and Forever." xoxo
Here is Pacino being kept happy with a candy cane. Behind him is a surprise Handsome painted for me. The French words mean, “Always Now and Forever.” xoxo

 

In May, Seraphine and Romulus gave us the sweetest little cria, and we loved him instantly. His big sister Dulcinea? Maybe not so much. The second photo below pretty well sums up the family dynamics.

fresh out of the oven baby llama
fresh out of the oven baby llama

 

Dulcie is annoyed at no longer being the darling of the farm. Seraphine is fussing with Romulus, who is easily cowed down by her. Meh is bright and chipper, oblivious to the conflict.
Dulcie is annoyed at no longer being the darling of the farm. Seraphine is fussing at Romulus, who is easily cowed down by her. Meh is bright and chipper, oblivious to the conflict.

Sadly but naturally (no predator or disease, just gentle old age), we lost Seraphine later in the year. Meh was inconsolable for days, but we are happy to report that now he is strong and happy, growing well, eating aggressively on his own, and well bonded to his big sister whether she likes it or not.

 

The llamas are such snow sweeties! They love it.
The llamas are such snow sweeties! They love it. And we love them.

 

I completed the education piece of the Oklahoma Country Master Gardeners’ program, and in addition to learning a metric ton of great stuff I also made a hundred wonderful human connections. I walked away from those months of lectures deeply inspired to garden better on our nine acres here, and in 2015 I get to share more of that with YOU! So exciting.

 

With Schroeder and Pat, my two wonderful mentors throughout the program!
With Schroeder and Pat, my two wonderful mentors throughout the program!

 

This year I also replaced our honeybees and did my best to give them a good, strong start before winter hit. Fingers crossed, prayers uttered, essential oils dropped lovingly, in spring we will see the fuzzy foraging babies out and about, eager to pollinate our gardens and gift us with the sweet molten treasure we so crave. For 2015 I’ll also be writing a quarterly newsletter for our Oklahoma State Beekeepers’ Association, so if that’s something you’re interested in I’ll have more and more beekeeping information to share with you!

 

bees

 

In 2014 I traded my black Camaro for a white Jeep. It was an emotional adjustment (silly how attached I was to that Camaro) but now I LOVE it. This Jeep is the vehicle for me, for this farm, for this stage of my life. It’s perfect.

 

In lieu of a stick family, animal decals.
In lieu of a stick family, animal decals. haha

 

We visited our favorite city, New Orleans, approximately 3,962 times. Not really, but we did enjoy more quick jaunts down south than usual. And our souls were nourished for it. We feasted heartily, we soaked up the music and the art, the architecture and the people. And this year we finally purchased a CD from a local favorite, Steamboat Willie. He and his well established jazz band play every. single. night. at a little outdoor jazz garden and cafe on Bourbon street. We love it there so much that I usually weep a little while we dance. I listened to the CD this week while doing housework and got a little teary again.

 

I left my heart in New Orleans.
I left my heart in New Orleans.

 

In 2014 I turned 40, woohoo! and have never felt better. Handsome and a whole slew of our wonderful friends and family members helped us celebrate, making me officially the most spoiled woman (err, person?) on this beautiful planet. He even rented a big pink castle-shaped bouncy house, and I could not stop laughing! Everyone jumped, too. Even my Mom!

 

As cliche as it sounds, I wish i had felt so good at 20 as I do now 40.
As cliche as it sounds, I wish I had felt so good at 20 as I do now at 40.

Our phenomenal little Oklahoma book club, Dinner Club With a Reading Problem, read eight books together in 2014. We enjoyed six or seven discussion dinners (sometimes we double up our titles) plus a handful of bonus gatherings throughout the year. I love this growing group of women even more now than when we started book club four years ago. FOUR YEARS! We are all together the closest of girlfriends. Did you know we have official t-shirts and everything? Well we do. It’s pretty swell.

 

We have a new book club member this year! Welcome Marci! xoxo
We have a new book club member this year! Welcome Marci! xoxo

 

This holiday season, really this entire past year, has been the perfect illustration of brackish water, emotionally. And I have written about it before and enjoyed the outpouring of your words and love. Our oldest was with us, which flooded the house with light! She is a total joy and made every childhood memory come pulsing back to life. Having her nearby to love and dote on made every single silly little tradition wildly meaningful again. Who knows when we’ll get to do Santa next? When we’re grandparents? It was pure bliss for Handsome and me and we hope for her too.

But, being apart from other loved ones… Both of my husband’s parents (so many fresh wounds there), my sister Angela, our west coast family, our youngest daughter… It definitely hurt. We could look at this weird life intersection as a way that grief tempers joy; but we choose to look at it all as a way that joy floods the valley of grief. It’s very real, friends, and I hope that if you are ever in a deep valley of grief, you can find all the joy you need to flood it until your miracle happens!

our youngest, the goose whisperer
our youngest, the goose whisperer

 

xoxo

xoxo

 

So overall 2014 was a year of both growth and evolution. Fun and recovery. Our adapting skills were tested, and I think we passed with flying colors. That doesn’t mean we didn’t hurt; it only means that we weren’t destroyed by the hurt. We were actually strengthened, changed by it in wonderful ways. And lest anyone think this is selfish, I am excited to soon tell you about how these changes made us even more ready for that moment our oldest daughter came home. God prepares us not just for ourselves but for others.

Do you feel ready for the new year? I sure do! I’m excited. I feel healed, nourished, energized, motivated by good, worthwhile things, and just overall amazing. I’m so grateful to be stepping into 2015 with my best and closest friend, my biggest fan and strongest rock. And we are going to have so much fun!

 

black and white silly

 

Happy New Year, friends! Thank you so much, really deeply truly, for following along this past year. Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. Thank you for helping us see the funny stuff. The Lazy W will be offering way more in 2015. Buckle up.

“It’s not so much how busy you are
but why you are busy.
The honey bee is praised.
The mosquito is swatted.”
~unknown 
XOXOXO

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looking back at 2014, video clip

December 31, 2014

Okay, this is fun! I am diving right in this new year to participate in some vlogging with Mama Kat. She hosts the funnest weekly link-ups and is an all around great person, so I can only assume this little adventure will be wonderful too. Try to ignore my afternoon hair and makeup, ok? I’ll try to do better next time. Maybe. But probably not.

You Tube tag: 2014 Looking Back

 

http://youtu.be/-IXaXl9EDEM

Now you tell me something! Please feel free to answer some of these questions here in comments. I’d love to read a glimpse of your year, looking back!

I am in desperate need of a tan.
I am purple.
XOXOXOXO

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